Jabba reveals intimate details of how he tried to commit suicide three times.
|||Rapper Hip Hop Pantsula, also known as Jabba, has revealed that the past year was a dark one for him, and that he attempted to take his own life three times.
According to gossip site Zalebs, Jabba laid it all on the table during an interview with Gareth Cliff.
“I was thinking while my policies (life insurance) are still active‚ let me just go out. Fifteen minutes in the car. Hose pope‚ whatever. I'm listening to Frank Ocean in the car. I'm thinking 15 minutes I should be done. An hour and a half later‚ nothing happens. I'm listening to the song on repeat now. I get out the car. It's time to take the kids to school,” the Bosso Ke Mang hitmaker told Cliff.
“So now I'm thinking maybe because my car is a hybrid, let me try with an old car. I get a friend of mine's old car. I take the hosepipe from his car to mine. I try again. It doesn't work,” HHP said of his second attempt.
TMG Entertainment reports that the rapper sought information on a suicide assistance website to ensure that his final attempt was effective.
“The last attempt‚ I'm fighting with my girlfriend or some s**t. They tell me to try helium. I get the helium tank… I turn this thing on and I'm thinking 'This is finally going to work'. The wifey has just gone to her friend's house and by the time she gets back‚ I'll be cold. The website says it should work in eight minutes and it's an hour and 12 minutes later now‚ so I start cursing.”
The rapper explained that while it didn't work‚ he was already thinking of how he would explain his altered voice to his girlfriend when she arrived home. It was then that everything changed.
”This voice came to me and said 'Dude‚ if you really want to die‚ you need to live. If you really want to die‚ you need to do that s**t that you've always wanted to do and you've always been scared of doing, and one of those is speaking my mind.”
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